still here II.

warning: long boring (whining) post with no pictures.

what a difference a 'day' can make. once you go past your due date things kinda go well, difficult. it's like you've been planning something fun for this certain day for 9 long months and then suddenly it doesn't work out. it's just a date they give you, not the exact day your suppose to have a baby, but somehow your mind doesn't always wrap around that fact. if you've ever had the privilege of being over 40 weeks pregnant you know what i'm talking about, the mind games have began.

physically, i feel great. i mean, really, i feel great. on my due date i shoveled the drive way, went swimming, slept through the night. but emotionally, i'm totally spent. i'm at a constant state of waiting. anyone that has been within a 2 feet radius of me has had the wrath of my frustrations in the past week. i've been a total let down as a wife, sister, daughter, and mother. i've debated going out and seeing people i know b/c i hear the comment "you're STILL pregnant!?" yep, it sure LOOKS like it! learning patience is just as hard this time as it was waiting for lane.

while i'm feeling overwhelmed with circumstances, i am very thankful. thankful for time with family that we would never have a chance to get if baby would have come when anticipated. thankful for a serving & loving husband. thankful for lane and his unending ways of making me laugh. and so thankful for the baby we saw in an ultrasound yesterday.

but REALLY hoping this baby doesn't have a march birthday.